It is so hard to believe that we have hit the 1 month mark!! Time has flown by! We are really feeling much more settled now and the feelings of homesickness are starting to subside. We still really miss our families, but it is not quite the same feeling that it was and for that we are thankful!
God is doing so much in our hearts! Thursday and Friday of this week were HUGE in our lives! We discussed several "isms" in class. The first one that really hit me (Rachel) was "me-ism". God revealed my attitude of superiority. So many times I find myself getting frustrated when things are not done the way I think they should be done! This goes across the board from big things to the smallest things like the way I want my laundry to be folded! I look at situations and the way people handle them and think, "Well, I would have done ____" or, "That wasn't the best way to handle that. If it were me..." This attitude is SINFUL! It leads me to be so critical of the people that surround me, and can even lead to a bitter spirit which effects my relationships with people. God is definitely changing me in this area and teaching me how to recognize when I am thinking with this attitude. I have to remain in a constant state of repentance, and recognize my sin, turn from it, and turn to the truth of God! The truth is, I am fallen just like the rest of mankind and just because I do things different, doesn't mean that they are better or the best. After discussing this with Laura Beth on Thursday, I recognized just how far this attitude can go. It plays into every area of life, especially my marriage. It keeps me from submitting to Mike's leadership and allowing him to lead. Even in what I would consider insignificant things! I recall many times we would be in the car and he would be driving. I would question the route he was taking to get somewhere, which really doesn't matter. Maybe I like going a certain way and maybe he thinks another way is faster. Either way I am called to let him lead. It seems so silly in some circumstance, but this attitude will also come out in different areas that could really hurt or disrepect him and cause problems in our marriage. It is part of the curse that I want to lead, but I know that is not my role and I am really trying to submit my heart to God's Word! Please pray that God will continue to teach me in this area.
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fan. tas. tic. rachel, this is great! it's a lifelong struggle to want to undermine your husband's authority, but getting a handle on it now will give you such a sweet advantage in your life together. knowing you are on his side and want to help him be a good leader will strengthen his ministry so much. sadly, it's not a concept that our society accepts very willingly, so you will be "pitied" by those who do not understand this. that's okay, though. we're not in this thing for man's praise, are we? keep learning, keep sharing...it's so encouraging!
ReplyDeleteAwesome Rachel. The Lord's work in your heart is really encouraging many of us and helping us to evaluate the "me-ism" we all struggle with. Thanks for sharing. Love and miss you both.
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Rachel, I have struggled with this same attitude in the past. We talk a lot about this in Ladies Bible Study - we all have to battle pride. The Lord has helped me to recognize some of these same things. What a blessing when He gives you victory. Luvu, Gran
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